Be Grateful not Hateful.....

“We tend to forget that happiness doesn't come as a result of getting something we don't have, but rather of recognizing and appreciating what we do have.”




I've been going through a lot of changes lately.....not just in life but in my mind.....
My outlook on life and what matters has become much much clearer and in turn I have become much much happier :D
I recently found myself in turmoil, crying yet not knowing really why and inside I was in absolute agony, unable to enjoy and appreciate everything I have around me and everything I have achieved. So I took some time out. Just four days, but these four days have made all the difference. I spent these four days with my mummy, the most amazing woman in the world.....who understands exactly what life is about and because of this, she is the most confident, happy and content woman I know, I've always admired this but never thought I could achieve it, but I think and hope I am on my way.....
During these four days, I wrote many songs that healed me a great deal but the main thing that really helped was......
My mother told me to write down all the things that make me happy.....I began with the obvious things: my loved ones, my animals, music, performing, laughing, nutella :D......and then I felt my pen take over and I was filling pages and pages with numerous things that made me happy, and just by writing them I felt happier and now every time I read them I feel happy. I add to the list whenever I think of something else that makes me happy. Try everyone, write your list.....
Then mothers next advice was to write down all these things, people and experiences I am grateful for.....Now this list was very therapeutic because I found people that wronged me or experiences that ended badly still made it on the list.....because I was still overwhelmingly grateful for all the good they had given me. It pains me that so many people these days are ungrateful and bitter and don't see or realise the good that people do for and around them, they are too wrapped up in their own world and their own greed...... So please everyone write a list of everything you are grateful for. The most amazing thing about this list is you will see a pattern forming and you will see how everything happens for a reason as one experience or one individual leads to another person or thing you are grateful for. The more grateful you are, the more good things and people will continue to come into your life, bringing you more things to be grateful for :D So your list will continue to grow.....
Last week was a wonderful week, I healed myself and I had amazing experiences. In which, I found myself smiling all week. Then last night, I found myself sobbing.....but this was an entirely new experiences because as I cried (frantically crying and shaking and hyperventilating) I found myself smiling, my cheek muscles were aching from stretching upwards and I realised I was crying because I was so grateful. I was overwhelmed. I began speaking aloud everything I was grateful for and these happy tears just kept on flowing.
I now feel so ridiculously happy.....before I was so obsessed with becoming successful and proving the non believers wrong, that my determination and impatience was killing me from the inside out.

However now, even though there is still so much more I wish to achieve in life and I am still painfully determined. I now know that this journey to making my dreams come true is going to be a happy one :D